Posted on February 8, 2016
I think I have issues with Schizophrenia and psychosis oriented medicines masking 36 years of serious learning disorders (related) problems.
I never did well in school ,was sleepy in class and was in preparation classes at different points of time during “my” childhood . The chaotic aspect of it was that my family was scared of the consequences of their sibling becoming more overt ,aware and more a part of the family as an organism. I would isolate myself in ways such as sit at an open table in a restaurant rather than a table for four with one person occupying it . Children are generally aware of the family home ,their parents and family socially as life organisms. If I were to speak it was never with the group or even superficially in relative context, or I would suffer distinct forms of bondage or slavery symbolism that were particularly utilitarian and anatomically associated or directed as deprivation of freedoms. The idea of treatment for adhd except for being put in preparation classes was never suggested until I was a young adult at which time I had been introduced to genotoxic medicines or major tranquilizers which had served to mask very serious learning problems in context of anatomy,or what is now adult associated ADHD or dycalculia combined with fibromyalgia fog, coordination problems and distraction.
When I was on my feet allot I would go to the bus and stray off to smoke about five minutes before each bus left, until the last one or I would lose a train ticket and experience frustration like Tourettes associated reaction problems with narcolepsy-like oriented problems. I don’t very often suddenly go to sleep but I may experience a fraction of a second where I get distracted and look at something in my pocket then leave it on a bench having experienced a fraction of a second black out and coordination problems. I think I need more attention in those areas as well as existential and identity crisis with my own nationalistic weakness.
I guess I really want to focus on the major tranquilizers because they have never helped me and in fact had caused allot of injuries,freedom deprivation,caused serious symptoms,warning signs, and hindered my entire education through young adult hood and life.
The improvement with other medicines is extraordinary and I realize that they are likely related to the sort of treatment I should have had early in life. How can educated people be so incompetent and criminal?
The other thing throughout my experience of the NHS is they were more concerned about bringing foreigners into the country than treating experienced symptoms. In fact at one point it was evident that they had no active idea what to do or how to communicate , not to mention isolation acts as encapsulation stigma with patients who had an abuse regime ethos which worked as a normalcy possibly because naturally I was easy to abuse lacked the ability to effectively make complaints or the situation was to overwhelming for me resulting in an inability to communicate along with my lack of education.
I experienced allot of alienation from interests ,a sense of defranchisement of extant energies which is really archaic or typical of them, which is really an attitude portrayed by persons who have to justify distinct systemic or collective abuse committed by a hospital organism represented as intangible.
I had some problems w Touretts associated symptoms I thought was narcolepsy related because Of being isolated for so long and to yell at someone or to be offensive is not in my character. On one of the broadcasts, hitler’s sweater experiment came about and as a simple article it really tells us that we are all born good but need to be influenced or trained in violence or soldiers wouldn’t go out and fight.
I think your show is terrific. Anyway I was looking at The Naked Scientist forums and I subscribe for therapeutic educational purposes.
I believe alienation and collective societal abuse around anatomy or genetics cause real forms of crisis and education around those issues is really workable as a therapeutic and educational regime and for the development of self ,ego or the mystification of self which deals with persona and identity.
The NHS was not doing that and was alienating me from interests committing bondage symbolism as therapy as well as holocaust symbolism at reducing a human being to a biological animal with no religion ,intuition or significant consciousness portrayal as a function of being.
Society, it’s symbols and peoples were all described as hallucinations not survival dynamics, associated with identity,consciousness or otherwise . The alienation was manifested at feeling bad about myself and that I would live life without symbolism, people or any relationships socially stimulating w the exception of those associating food chain slavery ideas and usery.
What’s left is a colonial organism and a situation of distinct food chain familiar behavior on private energies associated with self and related normal assertions w/ out compensation.
I have a 40 year blank, whereby I must really come to terms with some form of symbolism and or have a legal situation as intervention.
I know in the international draft mental health legislation that religion prevailing in a persons community cannot of itself be grounds for hospitalization nor can family conflict in itself be grounds for hospitalization or assault as a treatment for a disability which would consist of infliction as empirical causation or brain damage which in turn would would illicitate reactions crossed over as disability or allocate the treatment as assault to diminish responsibility eventually would become accademic, endemic and so on.
I know that I had problems at home when I was young because my family was strange to me and additionally I couldn’t learn which was experienced as a very extreme energy deficit followed by fibromyalgia-like fog and additionally followed by the lack of education and terminology to demonstrate my problems which sometimes resulted in what I believe is simular ,or may be hyper arousal as a pain, confusion with epileptic-like touretts reactions to physical reality combined with the lack of ability or fraternity to handle situations resulting in vulnerability to people abusing me which were typically educated people ,doctors and other persons associated to complaints ideologies solicitors said to have specialization in representing vulnerable persons who absolutely did not in any way make material representation of law or defend their client who absolutely was not able to make any representation of the actual science being practiced.
When I would speak it was not with people or the group I was drawing from simple dialects associated to the limited amount of education or ability I independantly had. Being apart of the family was as strange as some form of archaic food chain familiar relationship.
I failed to grow up and was treated like an immbecile or someone who wasn’t there throughout life or superficially. In some terms I thought I was retarded in retrospect but capable of learning but was never provided with subjective workable treatments. The medicine I was receiving caused severe pain ,very serious parkinsons-like symptoms to the point of exaustion sometimes significant failure of my body to function as an organism. The amount of fraud commited on a daily basis to justify treatmnets was unimaginable and were daily offences.
people who treated me were very mean provocative persons who were identifying with slavery symbolism or bondage symbolism which really I think we call very strong alienation principles which also consisted of superficial behavior ,pretend therapy and the same with all interaction.
People w schizophrenia react to something that isn’t there or very serious things with no life or individualistic meaning except .
My family were very afraid of me remembering or having any normal intuitive sense or intimate sense with nature.
I have realized now on the amitriptiline at an optimum dose I am functioning allot better with less pain . The anxielitic is really ideal for me because understanding myself means that I have to come to terms ,and
the reality deals with distinct differences which are likely to some degree visible. Really I think I have to look at holocaust symbolism in my particular schizophrenia because it is experienced as torture and resaulted in an absolute inability to function.
I liked hitlers sweater experiment because it infers that we are all born good and need to be influenced or trained to hurt people or else why wouldn’t we have armies and most people the experiment says pauses because they can’t imagine what they are doing. That may be different for psychosis or schizophrenia and I know thats not the case with me. Originally becoming dysfunctional was a reaction because things failed to make sense. I know I have had reactions to very physical or real abuse and those reactions resulted in allianation and assault by persons claiming to care for me. When I was younger I think I shop lifted was because I didn’t know better not because I had a natural desire but was easily influenced likely because I had trouble learning and had serious physical or symbolic distractions which lasted up until just after vary late teens
Anyway I wanted to try and explain this convenient Nasty schizophrenia diagnosis over all these years ,understood by me as an abuse which caused half of a life time of concentration ,slavery symbolism as a normal identity factor and psychological bondage, and extortion as treatment representing all relative acts of alienation from people life and the world setting aside people ascribed to be utilitarian.
Some things make me nervous like looking at myself as retarded animal, and really people with that symbolism have beliefs that are desacrilizing a human being is justifiable as symbolism as precident for impressions and life interactions generally as life alienation.
Anyway I have lived a life relatively isolated and my medicine is working after all this time. My learning problems are as less severe .
I think what I need to do is look for some legal help perhaps from the philedalohia association
Or the existential academy.
Is there something I should read or perhaps find a good lawyer .
The type of replies I need are perhaps distinct experimental isolation with antipsychotics major tranquilizers, case histories with similar meaning such as assaultive reaction from or associated to religion prevailing in a persons community and family confilct as assault carried out by the family contrary tp the international draft law on mental health or associated to forms of questional societal brokerage or cyber pedetors.
My original prescribing doctors were old with former society backgrounds. My family thought of me perhaps as repugnant and repugnant things with no education are perhaps they thought should be done away with which is really historically the value of psychiatries history.
It is amazing I am alive today and surviving . I have not been able to read much in a year and I don’t. If I think to much frustration would occur along with futility . I have for the last few years wanted do home study.
This malicious and or purposeful diagnosis of schizophrenia consists of caused instances and are really destructive symbolism of bondage.,defamation, fraud assailant crimes by justice platforms.
Robert Whiteker in Mad in America proclaims that Schizophrenia is iatragenic (caused by the medicine and the practitioners).
I am a very good witness on my own account and am looking for a fundamental witness like a professor of psychiatry on the fundamentals of consciousness identity and the staggering facts.
The one thing I have to count on is the human rights act because it takes into account rights to perception ,freedom, and behaviour and it is the most central document where psychiatry wishes to reduce this person to a biological animal w out any meaning.
Real psychology teaches about personal value as the building blocks of persona and identity or the experience.
It’s all the defamation and clinical fraud, and that psychiatry is self legislating and not trustworthy currently as an entity is not surprising right up to document corruption, data and internet brokerage .
I do know that antipsychotics have acted as a life anesthetic and that most of the time I have reacted to something real ,experienced as meaning, and I have had pain association reactions and numbness I further assert and had epileptic like yelling fits which seemed to be occluded or somewhat from periods of brain damage or lack of awareness and feeling week or defeated from medical drug assaults as a regime.
But really challenged by life in the sense that the schizophrenia medicine didn’t work. Allot of the time caused me to be paralyzed,have seizures and neuroleptic maligant syndrome.
I do think the extraordinary facts about my experience have valuable statistical context and are full of real arguments that make sense .
Does anyone know of any case whereby antipsychotics/major tranquilizers were used to mask learning problems as causatives or other.
Were those medicines used for such purposes as to dispose of a sibling or family members rights and the abuse continued as food chain ritualism(?!)